Life is certainly not fair. What you want you dont get and what you dont want always happens. I know the whole philoshphy of you enjoy what you think you don want and everything happens for the best and all that crap. but right at this moment, i don care about all that. I wanted something, and why the hell could it not happen. I mean its not like I wanted to go on a world tour or something. Jus something which could have happened without fuss and without hurting anybody. I really want to know God's modus operandi. Does he actually wait for me to wish for things so that he could do just the opposite?